i can definitely say that i wasn't the best that i could have been in my last relationship. she knew it and i knew it. changing things immediately to keep her, how selfish of me. didn't even get to show her the best of my ability to keep her happy, just too little too late. rushed into it and now it's a big mess that i've made for myself. i only do this to myself constantly. diggin a hole and each time it gets harder and harder to climb out of. i just wanna be the simple tune to your layers of music. with all the mistakes i've made i need to learn from them and use them as my stepping stone to getting to the better me. with time and progress, i know i can reach the better me.

i need to do better the next time i'm given the opportunity.