i don't know what to do.. what's the right thing to say in this kind of situation? i let you down. i made a big mistake and i could say all the things in the world and it still wouldn't be right. it's been heard before and not even a constant surprise for you. i was wrong.

girl i know i got a good thing
and i know that you're my everything
so you'll always be all i need
girl nothing means more to me.
i could try and find someone that's more special
but i'd search all my life cuz there's no one like my angel
and God knows that i'd be a fool if i ever let you go
that would be the biggest mistake of my life.

maybe that works? resorting to a song, how lame?
it hurts so bad.. you're not here with me. i've pushed you this far away from me without even knowing. i guess maybe you're right. maybe i wasn't ready.. as ready as i thought i was but i was certain that i was. we were happy but i just messed it up as i usually do. i have to have faith in this time. i hope you do too. faith that we'll come out of this one stronger than we've ever been. i'm committed to you and i'm committing to being a better girlfriend for you. i don't wanna let you down again, i don't want to disappoint you. you're the most important person in my life and i don't want to lose that.