sunshine

it's freakin hot!!! n then the cold is gonna come back outta the left field....i hope. haha i'm so huuuungry. i'm just rambling cuz i have nothing else to say but i'm trying to get into the habit of blogging and reflect.. but it hasn't been the whole day yet. i'll edit later.

edit 30 min later...

i can't wait to get away. i need a fuckin vacation away from this house. i can't wait till i move out either. then i won't have to deal with family members being annoyed by me. or having to deal with not being equal to anyone. when i get out of here it'll just be me and the love of my life n then everyone else won't matter to me just like what they did to me. i wish my parents didnt wait so long to have me... now they have to wait long for me to get my shit together. ughhhhh vent vent vent and hope all this anger goes away. vent vent vent and hope this negativity leaves. i'm just tired of living here with people that don't really care. then they wonder why i act the way i do. cuz i don't tolerate shit like this.. you think feeling this way for so long would cause me to be used to it. not really. i actually just wanna fight it rather than take it. what else can you do though? suck it up, i guess. swallow my pride.

on the brightside.... i'll be gone soon.. next week is my departure from this house. no responsibility for a week! ughh yes! can't wait. soon enough ill get to hug her as much as i want!